Yes I am, I am not really capable of doing anything new recently, idky, I keep deleting what I write and forgetting what I wrote, its a endless cycle that will either end in death, depression, or a sore wrist. Lets just say school started last week, i am taking a Tech class, a Forensics Science class, my english class, and an engineer class, lets just call it varied.

As for other things, let me be... open, for a minute, there is this person I know, who always makes me feel warm and fuzzy (worst way of describing it ever) and Im perfectly content with our relationship ^-^ I don't know what to think anymore, i just know whenever I talk to her I can't help but smile, and she knows who she is when she reads this.

In other news. I've been, having a pretty rough time, I didn't really know how to deal with my friends death, and I have to say, slowly, surely, things are getting better, every once in a while I'll have a relapse but otherwise Im pretty good at functioning as a whole.

Sorry bout boring you with this long... boring... updatey... update. But I should add some new stuff soon, I hope, I keep writing love poems, but they are too bland to put up... oh well.


Oh and the animes I am watching currently, Solty Rei, Area 88, Green Green, and Hitman Reborn I can't stress the fact that these animes are absolutly amazing, except for maybe Green Green, otherwise, I would completely recommend them

Not much has changed, Im still alive, obviously, check out the new poems, have fun, I will try to

My grandpa moved in yesterday and he brought this big fishtank and it looks really cool now that we have fish in it...

Right now... I feel empty. My friend. My best friend. He died today at 11:47 on a operating table a million miles away. I didn't get to see him in person like I wanted to. The only person I want to comfort me is off making a bad decision. Oh and I got an acoustic guitar for my birthday. Worst birthday ever...

Wow, I feel old, 17 years old. How long have I been on dA? omg... at least 3 years now? omg. And look how much better I am. not much lol. But hey, I got what I wanted for my birthday. Friends and a MP3 player, a Creative Zen Plus which I'm very happy for.

What else is there to say? Um, THANKS FOR BEING WITH MY IDIOTICNESS for so very long. I <3 you all for it ^-^

What do you do when your told that one of your food friends is going to die? I've been dealing with this for the past two days. And not a bit has felt good. My friend Kyle Sheffel has been in surgery 3 times after a car accident and I was told today that he has less then a month to live. The only person I've told is probably more broken down then I am. She had just met him not long ago. And She cried more then I did. I guess maybe I'm worried. What do I do after hes gone? idk. I feel so empty. Maybe a poem later. Idk I'll try to write a dedication poem later, but Im not sure